Trying to apply for college!!!! STRESS!!!

So over the past week or two iv been trying to apply for this course my sixth form found for me, with me passing my first year in media they found me a course that will take on people with a AS/A2 level for a year but actually 'applying' for the course has been testing my nerves, there is a massive processes i have to go through but i have no idea what im doing so im having to go back into my old sixth form to go see out careers adviser and go through the application. EFFORT!!!! but the course is something i really want to do (Its a media productions diploma level three) so im having to prepare for a shit long day tomorrow -_- UUUGH! wish me luck.

I Left Sixth Form!!!!

So on Wednesday this week was the day i went back to transition into year 13 don't get me wrong i loved doing my AS levels last year but this year i just thought to myself "why the hell am I coming back to this hell hole" due to the fact i didn't like my sixth form, only to find that when we went into my old form room that my form tutor told me that I have to resit year 12, i don't really know why exactly but i have a feeling its something stupid, at the time i wanted to cry because iv done all that work for nothing and having all my friends go into the year above and leave my on my own with new sixth formers is something i didn't want, but to be honest i haven't enjoyed myself all that much in sixth form because id hate every minuet in school and my anxiety got really bad to the point where id panic in crowed places or if i had to go into a classroom full of people i didn't know and at that time id really start to not like myself and resent the people around me (except my group of friends) so i left. I really fell like i kinda did the right thing in a way but not at the same time, i just wanna focus on getting my head right, focus on my YouTube channel and hopefully find a job -.- Hope io didnt bore you with this story ^-^ xxxx