Getting Better At Graphic Design ^-^

Lately after finishing college....well 'dropping out' should we say iv been really getting into doing more graphic design and seeing if i can get better and tbh i think i have but really need some feedback just to put my mind at ease :D <3 xxxxx

HERE ARE SOME OF THE FINISHED RESULTS OF SOME:

Obviously keeping with the pastel goth/pastel kawaii theme XD <3 xxx

LOST AND KINDA SAD :(

So today was the day i had to go directly to the college to see if i could apply to the course i wanted to do (Media Production extended diploma level 3) but after a long bus journey and half an hour in the college itself, turns out the course is full which makes no sense since my ex head of sixth form rung up and they said they had loads of places available!!!! PISS TAKE!.

Now i have no idea what to do with myself anymore -.- kinda bummed out, they said i could apply again but on their website then id be put on a waiting list for next year but i dno yet, it really need to talk it over with people -.- UUUUGH! nothing that comes my way can be easy can it?!

Trying to apply for college!!!! STRESS!!!

So over the past week or two iv been trying to apply for this course my sixth form found for me, with me passing my first year in media they found me a course that will take on people with a AS/A2 level for a year but actually 'applying' for the course has been testing my nerves, there is a massive processes i have to go through but i have no idea what im doing so im having to go back into my old sixth form to go see out careers adviser and go through the application. EFFORT!!!! but the course is something i really want to do (Its a media productions diploma level three) so im having to prepare for a shit long day tomorrow -_- UUUGH! wish me luck.

I Left Sixth Form!!!!

So on Wednesday this week was the day i went back to transition into year 13 don't get me wrong i loved doing my AS levels last year but this year i just thought to myself "why the hell am I coming back to this hell hole" due to the fact i didn't like my sixth form, only to find that when we went into my old form room that my form tutor told me that I have to resit year 12, i don't really know why exactly but i have a feeling its something stupid, at the time i wanted to cry because iv done all that work for nothing and having all my friends go into the year above and leave my on my own with new sixth formers is something i didn't want, but to be honest i haven't enjoyed myself all that much in sixth form because id hate every minuet in school and my anxiety got really bad to the point where id panic in crowed places or if i had to go into a classroom full of people i didn't know and at that time id really start to not like myself and resent the people around me (except my group of friends) so i left. I really fell like i kinda did the right thing in a way but not at the same time, i just wanna focus on getting my head right, focus on my YouTube channel and hopefully find a job -.- Hope io didnt bore you with this story ^-^ xxxx